Wednesday, 28 April 2010

31 Songs: Save Tonight

I never really though of myself as much of a singer when I was younger, however I wanted to play guitar so I learned to do that. Then when I learned that I would spend ages in my room singing and writing songs.

When I was in third year me and two of my friends spent a lot of time singing and playing guitar in the music rooms in Lurgan Junior High, it was here I was encouraged to sing and told I had a good voice. Now I love playing gigs, writing songs and singing for anyone!

The song I remember singing most in Junior High music rooms was save tonight by eagle eye cherry.. so here it is :)

Tuesday, 27 April 2010

31 Songs: Don't Go Away

Song 7 is Don't Go Away by Oasis. Oasis are my favourite band so it is probably no suprise to anyone that they have made it in here!





This song is truly beautiful. It has always been a favourite song of mine, however, it was this Easter just over 4 weeks ago that this song gained a new special resonance with me. This Easter I had to do the hard task of asking a girl out (don't worry she said yes) but although I am Mr. Confidence most of the time (much like the Gallagher's) I am terrified at doing things like that when I genuinely like someone. And for days (OK weeks) I kept leaving the girl home knowing I had to talk about everything and day after day I got too scared. But every day then I would drive off round the corner, lift my iPod in my car and put this song on.

So dont go away, say what you say
Say that you'll stay, forever and a day
In the time of my life
Cos I need more time,
yes I need more time just to make things right

Those words just always seemed to sum up everything I was feeling. Also the second verse I could relate to:

Damn my situation
and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education
I can't find the words to say
With all the things caught in my mind

I remember going to the Holy Week meetings held in Lurgan and walking about after with this bit stuck in my head:

Me and you whats going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
the feelings that are wrong

This is very much how I was feeling. I knew something was meant to happen and was going to but I over think and freak out and just get really scared so the 'me and you what's going on.' line was always in my head!

Good news is she gave me more time to make things right and it all worked out, good times, great song. Make sure you actually click on the wee links to the songs and enjoy them everyday. Also thinking of making a few CD's with my 31 songs on them when I've done all 31 blogs. Anyone want one contact me :)

Monday, 26 April 2010

31 Songs: Rootless Tree

Ok, I just want to say I don't think it is a great idea for Christians to swear or use profanites all the time. I am a christian and have however picked a song with a chorus mainly made up of the f-word...

Rootless Tree by Damien Rice is a haunting and beautiful piece of music that I got obsessed with when I was in Upper 6th. It is a painful song that i listened to again and again. I don't have any specific story about the song, however anytime i was annoyed at women in my life I stuck it on.

So don't watch this clip if swearing offends you. However do watch if you love beautiful raw pieces of music.


Saturday, 24 April 2010

31 Songs: Scared Of Falling

LINK TO SONG

Okay, there is no youtube link for this song, but if you follow my above link you should be able to listen to it, if that fails go to brian Houstons myspace and its on the wee music player there:)

Anyway- Song 5 is Scared of Falling by Brian Houston.

Anyone who knows me well will probably have been expecting him to show up on this blog soon! I love Brian Houston and his music has influenced my own to a great extent. (http://www,myspace.com/markknox) But thi song has to be my favourite and it is one that evokes certain feelings each time I listen to it.

The song is about a relationship where the romance seems to be dying and the song is about being scared of falling out of love with someone and being scared they are falling out of love with you. There is no soppy love story I am going to tell ypou now about how I have experienced this. I just vivisly remember going to see Brian at Emmanuel Church in Lurgan in 2007 and him singing this song. It a perfect piece of music that I hold dear in my heart just for being beautiful.

The lines that get me each time:

Were you distracted by the facts of life?
While our romance was being sacrificed
like when we agreed to not send eachother valentines again cos it's a waste
and one turned up for you....

Oh my that gets me every time even as I type that I get goospebumps.
Such a simple line in a song but it reminds us not to get too busy with with life and take for granted the people we love.

Quite a simple one today... but seriously give it a listen.. it'll come back to you sometime and remind you to love...

Thursday, 22 April 2010

31 Songs: In The Sun

Okay, first thing I want to do is explain that I have all my 31 songs picked. I have been talking to some people about this blog and don't want people thinking I sit down and think what other song could I write about. Also they are in no particular order. They aren't even necessarily my favourite 31 songs just 31 that have impacted or soundtracked mylife. anyway...number 4!




Joseph Arthur- In The Sun. THis song helped me in late 2009/ January 2010 as i had a kind of crisis of faith. The song isn't a Christian song. Joseph Arthur as far as I know isn't a Christian, but I first heard this song when I was watching the film Saved! a film about a christian school and it was played at a part of the film where the pupils had nop faith left in the school. Or God. I never stopped believing in God. However, there was a patch where my mind was full of doubts. Was God the Christian God? Was he listening to me? Where my prayers just stopping at the ceiling as i lay on the floor crying to God? I couldn't feel God like a good Christian should. I lay in bed after downloading Joseph Arthurs whole back catalogue listening to this song... and I cried. Not to God as I didn't know if he was listening or not. But He was.

"I pictured you in the sun wondering what went wrong And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in..."

The song begins like that. Thats how i felt I was on my knees just asking for sympathy. I didn't want forgiven, just to know God was there, that he cared. I was caught between what I wanted to believe about God and what i saw.. which was that He didn't care. I know now that he did and he was there through it all but I just felt so alone. The line that stuck out the most to me was the next one. It seemed i was just trying to find anything i could feel that I could believe in. It hurt when he sang that. It was like I was begging God to reveal himslef to me because I wanted to believe in him but felt I couldn't. That whole opening verse revealed the tension in my heart. The Chorus though changes the tone:

May God's love be with you Always... May God's love be with you Always... May God's love be with you Always... May God's love be with you

When Joseph arthur sang those lines through my earphones I felt a comfort. I felt I knew God was there. He loved me. Maybe not the fairytale God I had perhaps created in my own mind whose purpose was to please me, fulfill my wants and needs, but a father God, whose name is love and whose plans and purposes are greater than mine. It shook me up, but in the end brought comfort. It eased the tensions in my heart that the verse revelaed.

I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes 'Cause when you showed me myself, you know, i became someone else

I knew this was true, I knew when God shown me himself I would want to change and become who he wanted me to.

'Cause if i find If i find my own way How much will i find If i find If i find my own way How much will i find If i find If i find my own way How much will i find You... You... I'll find you You... I don't know anymore What it's for I'm not even sure If there is anyone who is in the sun Will you help me to understand 'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need Maybe you're not even sure what it's for Any more than me

These lines where exactly how i felt. I was scared if i searched for God that I wouldn't like what I'd find. That he wouln't be someone i'd like. I was so scared that he wasn't there, and needed help understanding.

Since this crisis of faith I have spent many nights lisening to this song and seeking that God. And yeah i guess some things i thought about God had to change. My view of God had to widen. But life is a journey and God has brought me to a place where I can be in the sun seeking and finding him but fully knowing he loves me, cares for me and is ALWAYS there.

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

31 Songs: What If His People Prayed

"If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land." 2 Chronicles 7:14



I am not a huge fan of Casting Crowns or Christian music in general but the Casting Crowns song What If His People Prayed is my third of my 31 songs. In the run up to easter 2009 and the following few weeks (6 I think) after Lurgan had a prayer room up the town. It was a place that on the run up to easter and during the week of gLo (a Lurgan street reachy type thing..but better) the room was always full of young people praying. However after gLo despite all the young peoples promises of praying for te town and their insistance that the prayer room stayed open the prayer room began to have less young people in it. I'm not pointing the finger at those young people and saying their promises to their town were half-hearted, they could have been praying at home. However me and my good friend Timmy continuied to visit the prayer room. All day. Every day. We had a lot of useless conversations and silly ideas while in there. However we also prayed. A lot. And now over a year on I can definitiely look back at that time in my life when I seemed to be praying for the sake of it and I can say that in that room God gave me dreams, my relationship and understanding of him deepened and it was a pivitol point in my life. It's funny how I went to that room crying out for God to help change the town, to make the church awken to what God wanted to do and God changed me and awakened dremas and love within me that I hadn't experienced before. During my long sits in the prayer room I would often sit in the top right hand corner on the floor and look at a beautiful painting of my town and pray with my iPod on. Perhaps What If Hisp People Prayed was a cliched song to listen to. But I did. And now every time I hear it I rememebr I am called to pray, to seek God and reminded of what he stirred up in my heart before and that he has more stirring to do. Here's the full lyrics:

What if the armies of the Lord
Picked up and dusted off their swords
Vowed to set the captive free
And not let satan have one more
What if the Church, for heaven's sake
Finally stepped up to the plate
Took a stand upon God's promise
And stormed hell's rusty gates

Chorus I:What if His people prayed
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His faith, yeah
And turn from their old ways

And what would happen if we prayed
For those raised up to lead the way
Then maybe kids in school could pray
And unborn children see light of day
What if the life that we pursue
Came from a hunger for the truth
What if the family turned to JesusS
topped asking Oprah what to do

Chorus I:What if His people prayed
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His face yeah
And turn from their own way

Chorus II:He said that He would hear
His promise has been made
He'll answer loud and clear, yeah
If only we would pray

Bridge:If My people called by My name
If they'll humble themselves and pray
If My people called by My name
If they'll humble themselves and pray

Choruses:What if His people prayed
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His face, yeah
And turn from their old ways
He said that He would hear
His promise has been made
He'll answer loud and clear yeaah
If only we would pray

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

31 Songs: You Could Be Happy

Ok, my second of my 31 songs is you could be happy by snow patrol. I again was not overly impressed by this song upon first listen. However I love the television show Gavin and Stacey and this song was in an episode where it all began to make sense. The song is directed to an ex or in Gavin and Stacey a distant partner. The songs is full of regret and heartache. However the song tells of how the ex made you happier than you'd been by far. It is a beautiful song. Shortly after I fell in love with it on Gavin and Stacey in 2008 I remember hurting someone pretty bad. I din't want them to hurt, I didn't want to be the cause of hurt. I remember walking down Lurgan Main street with my iPod in shortly after leaving this person sitting in a coffee shop and the iPod sang:

You could be happy and I won't Know, But You Weren't happy the day I watched You go..

I remember walking down the road and my heart echoed every word of the song.

Then I kind of forgot about it.

Until recently I began to rewatch every episode of Gavin and Stacey. Then when that episode came on again and the song started. I remembered the old emotional ressonace the song had with me. However as I listened and relistend to the song again and again recently it has become a song that doesn't remind me of anything bad, anything painful. It just reminds me of sitting on my couch with Gavin and Stacey on and everything in the world falling into place as it has been recently...

Monday, 19 April 2010

31 Songs

Ok, so today I was talking to two people about music and what music I like and what they like. I think It reveals alot about you. However as i told them I was a fan of Atomic Kitten and Kym Marsh it sometimes leads people to believe you just have no taste. And Maybe I don't. However, the author Nick Hornby once wrote a book called 31 songs. It was a collection of essays about favourite songs of his, why he liked them and what emotional ressonance they had with him. I am going to very much steal his idea. For the next 31 days i will post a new blog about one of my 31 songs which i have carefully picked as 31 songs that have in some way shaped, directed or soundtracked my life. Some will be christian songs, others won't. anyway let's get started...

1. One Hundred Hours- Love Rescue Me



So why this song? I knew the band one hundred hours were coming to a gig held by Megalife in 2008 so i decided to download their albums. I had a little listen to them and thought they were Ok. However between downloading them and seeing the band perform I didn't listen to them again. Their songs didn't really seem to resonate with me at all. However a few months later that October I was having quite a hard time ( in retrospect I wasn't really I was having a pity party for myself after making my own silly mistakes,) and I had my iPod on shuffle one night in my bed and the lyrics started up:

'When I need someone to quiet my fears
Till the whispers inside me all disappear
And when I need someone to dry all my tears
I’ll wait for You yes I’ll wait for You..'

All of a sudden I felt a sort of comfort. The song spoke in depth to my heart that no matter what happens I have someone who cares for me, A love that rescues me and that love is God.

I remember i replayed and replayed the song again and again in my bed that night and felt a relief as i burried my head in my pillow and cried out to God. told him I needed his love to rescue me.

I have since sang the song many times when leading worship and like to think I introduced that song to a lot of people. Today I still often have to put it on, sit back and close my eyes and let the words wash over me. It is the most played song on my iPod, I don't have any tattoos but if I was to get one I think I would want it to be Love Rescue Me.

That is why it is one of my 31 songs.