Monday, 23 November 2009

But Was Jesus Funny??

Romans 8:29 (New International Version - UK)

For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.

This verse is the verse that many LOVE to talk about as it gives us a chance to hear thie views on predestination. Luckily for you I'ts not predestination thats been on my mind. It's the next bit.

"to be conformed to the likeness of his Son"

We are to become like Jesus..

And what? I hear you say, We've had this drummed into us for years, be nice, love the trees, turn the other cheek blah blah blah! But this has been troubling me recently. I feel I'm on some sorta journey. You could call it finding myself if thats not too Dawsons Creek-esque. And I'm finding I try so hard to be a million people. I want to have the swagger of Liam Gallagher, be as attention grabbing as Russell Brand whilst dressing like a young Alex Turner and quoting Pete Doherty lyrics... I guess I try to be like all these people because I respect them. I respect Jesus and all but how can I be like him?? How did he dress? was Jesus funny? what kind of muisc did he listen to? You see these are the things I think of when trying to be like somebody, because I'm obsessed with the exterior. People can see that and thats what matters right?

"People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7b


I see..

I'm kinda getting this now.. but what is the heart? how does Jesus want my heart? how do I change my heart? when you have a 'change of heart' it normally isn't because you decided to.. right?

Guess God can change our hearts though? break them, shape them? we just have to give them to him..

but that might mean he changes us..

and I'm pretty funny and great. Difficult. I'm slowly figuring out I'm not that great though. God is great. And Jesus is great. And I've got to spend time with him letting him seep into my heart. easy said (typed) not easy done.

Not all journey's are easy and I'm on a journey. I don't know if people read this. or if they are on a journey. I hope so. and I hope you are


Thursday, 19 November 2009

Just For Fun- Albums Of The Decade

Just thought as all the music magazines were doing it I would post up my top albums of the decade as it is coming to the end!

10. Nine Days- The Madding Crowd
9.Switchfoot- The Beautiful Letdown
8.Oasis- Don't Believe The Truth
7.Robbie Williams- Escapology
6.Brian Houston- Three Feet From Gold
5.The Strokes- Is This It?
4.Bloc Party- Silent Alarm
3.The Libertines- Up The Bracket
2. The Streets- Original Pirate Material
1. Arctic Monkeys- Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not

Just thought I'd take a break from the heavier thinking for this wee post :)


Tuesday, 17 November 2009

Do You Love Me Enough To Let Me Go?

It has been a while.
Ive been thinking a lot about love... I guess everybody does.. everybody wants to fall in love. Look at the charts they are full of songs about love. 'fight for this love', 'everybody in love,' 'you've got the love' and thats just three songs in this weeks uk top 40!

But why are we never satisfied with the love we give eachother?

This is a question John Foreman has been asking, on the new Switchfoot album (it is awesome) there is a song called 'Enough To Let Me Go' it caught my attention straight away with lines like:

"Do you love me enough to let me go?
To let me follow through
To let me fall for you, my love
Do you love me enough to let me go?"

I wondered what he was talking about! is it a break-up song, a make up song a get together song? whats the problem with love? but that is the problem.. love between people is a bit broken, its got a bit twisted..

John Foreman himself says this of the song:

"In our barcode media, love is often portrayed as consumption. As consumers in a commercial driven culture we can begin to view other souls as objects, or potential cures for our deepest fears and insecurities. Perhaps if I found the right lover I would no longer feel this deep existential despair. But of course no human soul could be the Constant Other, the face that will never go away. Only the infinite can fill that role. But the silence can be deafening. It's a fearful thing to be alone. Do you love me enough to let me go? "I can't live without you"- I would die if you ever left me"- These are not the songs of love, these are the songs of consumption."

And I guess thats true.. no human soul can save me from whatever it is i need. Only God. Thtas easy to say though? Its not easy lived out. I look for people to fill that space. Attention, adoration, girls.

I've been re-reading 'Through Painted Deserts' By Donald Miller and in it his mate Paul says to him:

"I have just been thinking how what we really want is forpeople to love us. God, girls, friends, parents. It seems like life is all about that stuff, you know." "...I just feel like God put us here to enjoy Him...that He is love."

Paul was right.. I guess thats what love is all about.. God.

I don't think these meandering thoughts make much sense but I pray they will... resonate with someone... that we can all forget about trying to earn everyones love, we can stop using 'love' for our own selfishness and that we understand that God is love. and we enjoy him...

Life is a journey right?

I was going to end this with something funny and smart.. to try and make you love me more I suppose.. But I'm learning that I don't always have to be the Funny guy all the time.. I'm allowed to question, to ponder and to wonder...

Perhaps You will love me enough to let that go?